Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Look at the time now, I'm fucking serious, look.
Its 1.30am sharp. Oh my god, dont ask me why i'm still awake. I'm sacrificing my beauty sleep all in the name of Human Resource Management.
This sounds pathetic alr. :( Been down lately, just this feeling that i can shun away from. Last 2 weeks were hell, emotional roller coaster ride as i mentioned. Some fucked up things i dont think its convenient t mention here, but lets just say; I'm a big asshole when it comes t this.
Ethan's nick is depressing. God damn, dont tell me his r/s failed as well. Lets count, I alr have 3 idol r/s down and i'm like digressing as t whether i should get married. LOL right, i know. I dont want the same thing t happen t me. I dont even want t talk about having kids alr, or even my much loved eyecandies or getting Mr Right.
Everything looks so damn bleak right now. I dont know what the hell is going on, i just feel like gagging myself t death. FM on thurs, and i'm officially chicken-ing out. I dont dislike FM, i just try my best t like it.
Fuck maths at times seriously, they never fail t make your head swim.
I mean NEVER.
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I'm feeling so down, so disappointed, so upset, so flabbergasted with everything, especially myself.
What the hell is going on with me?!
I hope i can get a decent job this holiday, i want t work!
Hopefully i can work at HURS ? Jp outlet though, near t my house and everything. Pay is downright pathetic i know, but hey its near my house!
Okay i'm getting dillusional, i need t stop before i go bonkers.
Jo isnt replying my msn, stupid joycelyn.
I'm falling hard,
would you catch me?
do you remember?
do you remember our love?
do you remember those bittersweet memories?
or do you only remember her?
One last advice for you peeps; the truth is ugly.
Lets face it rather than crouch in a corner feeling sorry for yourself. If not worst, try t self deceive and tell yourself that everything is alright when its not. Life is a bitch, but remember, you have t be a bigger bitch. :)
Its 1.30am sharp. Oh my god, dont ask me why i'm still awake. I'm sacrificing my beauty sleep all in the name of Human Resource Management.
This sounds pathetic alr. :( Been down lately, just this feeling that i can shun away from. Last 2 weeks were hell, emotional roller coaster ride as i mentioned. Some fucked up things i dont think its convenient t mention here, but lets just say; I'm a big asshole when it comes t this.
Ethan's nick is depressing. God damn, dont tell me his r/s failed as well. Lets count, I alr have 3 idol r/s down and i'm like digressing as t whether i should get married. LOL right, i know. I dont want the same thing t happen t me. I dont even want t talk about having kids alr, or even my much loved eyecandies or getting Mr Right.
Everything looks so damn bleak right now. I dont know what the hell is going on, i just feel like gagging myself t death. FM on thurs, and i'm officially chicken-ing out. I dont dislike FM, i just try my best t like it.
Fuck maths at times seriously, they never fail t make your head swim.
I mean NEVER.
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I'm feeling so down, so disappointed, so upset, so flabbergasted with everything, especially myself.
What the hell is going on with me?!
I hope i can get a decent job this holiday, i want t work!
Hopefully i can work at HURS ? Jp outlet though, near t my house and everything. Pay is downright pathetic i know, but hey its near my house!
Okay i'm getting dillusional, i need t stop before i go bonkers.
Jo isnt replying my msn, stupid joycelyn.
I'm falling hard,
would you catch me?
do you remember?
do you remember our love?
do you remember those bittersweet memories?
or do you only remember her?
One last advice for you peeps; the truth is ugly.
Lets face it rather than crouch in a corner feeling sorry for yourself. If not worst, try t self deceive and tell yourself that everything is alright when its not. Life is a bitch, but remember, you have t be a bigger bitch. :)
1:33 AM
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
DAMN FUCKING PISSED OFF.
Look at the damn time now, its a holy fucking 3.30am in the damn morning. And i'm still awake. All thanks t vince's loud thumping for 30mins and elon's constant pain which caused vince t lose his temper and scream at him.
Me on the other hand, am having a big emotional turmoil. All i want t do right now, is t cry out loud. I've never slept so late in my whole life for exams. Never.
and i'm breaking the record now.
Especially when tmr's paper is one i've been working damn hard for. No one know how it feels, no one ever does anyway. I was going suicidal, as i was telling nick i wanted t just jump out of my window and die. Like 4 storeys high would kill me. I really cant take it anymore, the stress and everything. So fucking stressed up because i cant sleep, and because i know very well my brain processes well only when i sleep.
You know what ? Fuck it, tmr's paper is a goner.
Everyone's gonna start taunting me and my parents are gonna get disappointed and i'm gonna go back t sqaure one.
A good for nothing piece of shit dad always implied.
I can only hope i remember everything and that FEB is just as easy as blaw.
fuck my life.
Look at the damn time now, its a holy fucking 3.30am in the damn morning. And i'm still awake. All thanks t vince's loud thumping for 30mins and elon's constant pain which caused vince t lose his temper and scream at him.
Me on the other hand, am having a big emotional turmoil. All i want t do right now, is t cry out loud. I've never slept so late in my whole life for exams. Never.
and i'm breaking the record now.
Especially when tmr's paper is one i've been working damn hard for. No one know how it feels, no one ever does anyway. I was going suicidal, as i was telling nick i wanted t just jump out of my window and die. Like 4 storeys high would kill me. I really cant take it anymore, the stress and everything. So fucking stressed up because i cant sleep, and because i know very well my brain processes well only when i sleep.
You know what ? Fuck it, tmr's paper is a goner.
Everyone's gonna start taunting me and my parents are gonna get disappointed and i'm gonna go back t sqaure one.
A good for nothing piece of shit dad always implied.
I can only hope i remember everything and that FEB is just as easy as blaw.
fuck my life.
3:21 AM
Sunday, December 6, 2009
I swear t god i'm really going t go crazy if i'm gonna continue having exams. Like seriously! I cant stand it anymore, the stress and everything is building up on me.
Everyone is freaking out over blaw and i'm the exact opposite. I'm freaking out over FM and FEB. Especially FEB since the format changed, oh good lord. I hope i do well. 5 freaking modules for god sake.
I better go revise asap so i can load chris with FEB questions later. Sorry chris! Desperate alr, no one can help me in FEB especially the EPS part, argh. :(
i really hope i do well.
Everyone is freaking out over blaw and i'm the exact opposite. I'm freaking out over FM and FEB. Especially FEB since the format changed, oh good lord. I hope i do well. 5 freaking modules for god sake.
I better go revise asap so i can load chris with FEB questions later. Sorry chris! Desperate alr, no one can help me in FEB especially the EPS part, argh. :(
i really hope i do well.
6:26 PM
Saturday, November 28, 2009
This week has been a exhilarating emotional roller coaster for me. Never in my life have i had so much drama in a week happening t the people i love around me.
First it was weiling, then luchella & jek then alex. Oh my goodness, i think i might have died from hormonal changes especially when they all happen in the PMS WEEK.
More than glad that everything is fine now. :)
Met alex up yesterday! Havent seen him for damn bloody long. Record broken, its my first time waiting 1.5hrs for a friend. I know right ? If it was someone else i would have been so pissed off. Hes totally taking advantage of the situation HAHAHAHAHAHA. Nah, he was having auditions for his band, so i decided t be nice.
Treated him t KFC, pepper chicken was the kill. Spicy like mad, almost died. Alex owes me t big big big hawker fare meal! :) Cant wait t meet him up during the hols, i want t eat all the hawker fares like hokkien mee, sugar cane drink, chicken riceeee blah blah. Too bad he cant take seafood. :(
Alright, i needa go rush FEB report. Fucking stressed up! :(
I havent start my revisions yet,
i bloody hell hope i dont screw up my msts.
Still need t attend the dumb IT security talk on wed, i alr know what i want t wear. I think i'm going t that talk alone, sadistic.
Oh well, so much for revising.
I'm soooo looking forward t all the things i can do during the hols, hopefully we girls can go tanning, picnic-ing, cycling, movie-ing, shopping, steamboat-ing andddddd girls talk!
I miss siewling so so so much, she has been like missing for the past few weeks.
I know shes busy with her fyp but i just miss her so much :( I sound so depressed when i say this, god damn i AM depressed over not seeing her.
Okay no more procrastinating.
I MUST REACH MY GOAL!
CHIONG!
First it was weiling, then luchella & jek then alex. Oh my goodness, i think i might have died from hormonal changes especially when they all happen in the PMS WEEK.
More than glad that everything is fine now. :)
Met alex up yesterday! Havent seen him for damn bloody long. Record broken, its my first time waiting 1.5hrs for a friend. I know right ? If it was someone else i would have been so pissed off. Hes totally taking advantage of the situation HAHAHAHAHAHA. Nah, he was having auditions for his band, so i decided t be nice.
Treated him t KFC, pepper chicken was the kill. Spicy like mad, almost died. Alex owes me t big big big hawker fare meal! :) Cant wait t meet him up during the hols, i want t eat all the hawker fares like hokkien mee, sugar cane drink, chicken riceeee blah blah. Too bad he cant take seafood. :(
Alright, i needa go rush FEB report. Fucking stressed up! :(
I havent start my revisions yet,
i bloody hell hope i dont screw up my msts.
Still need t attend the dumb IT security talk on wed, i alr know what i want t wear. I think i'm going t that talk alone, sadistic.
Oh well, so much for revising.
I'm soooo looking forward t all the things i can do during the hols, hopefully we girls can go tanning, picnic-ing, cycling, movie-ing, shopping, steamboat-ing andddddd girls talk!
I miss siewling so so so much, she has been like missing for the past few weeks.
I know shes busy with her fyp but i just miss her so much :( I sound so depressed when i say this, god damn i AM depressed over not seeing her.
Okay no more procrastinating.
I MUST REACH MY GOAL!
CHIONG!
1:05 PM
Friday, November 27, 2009
I'm only here t remind all sp poly students not t fucking leave your things unattended.
Two of my classmates' backpacks were stolen at fc5 today between 10.45am-11am. When i say backpacks, i mean the whole god damn thing. And it wasnt just one, it was a bloody hell two.
After all the paperwork we realised another backpack was stolen at fc4 15mins before ours were stolen. We suspect its some kind of a laptop-backpack syndicate whom goes round stealing people's laptops and backpacks. Laptops are often stolen at FC5 ALL THE DAMN TIME. ( the cleaning auntie at fc5 told us ).
We suspect students are the culprits and we believe many more students have been suffering in silence by not reporting this matters t the police so we decided t do just that.
We've left them the report and they're currently investigating. Meanwhile we can do nothing but t reach out t all sp poly students, we dont want the pain t happen t you. It can happen t anyone, just like how it happened t us.
Do not take things for granted like we did, do not think that people wont bother taking your bags because they will.
We're a living example and its a lesson learnt for us. Dont learn the hard way, and please pass this on. We do not want this t happen again and we're sure those bastards would strike again. They definitely will and we're doing all we can right now t reach out t you sp students t create awareness on this issue.
Its up t us t prevent crime from happening t any of us, those bastards wont let it go and we as the victims are here t tell you the true story, so please pass it on. Let as many people know as possible.
Thank you. :)
the only thing i cherished today was when we all snuggled today,
as a true clique,
as a bunch of people who truly cared about each other,
it touched me t know how this minor incident brought us closer,
as a clique, as it brought us t a higher level of our friendship.
Thank you mallory, yongquan for rushing back from fc6 the moment i call you peeps.
Thank you Jiamin, Chengyun and Amanda from rushing back from Orchard the moment Mallory gave you girls a call on the situation today. :)
Two of my classmates' backpacks were stolen at fc5 today between 10.45am-11am. When i say backpacks, i mean the whole god damn thing. And it wasnt just one, it was a bloody hell two.
After all the paperwork we realised another backpack was stolen at fc4 15mins before ours were stolen. We suspect its some kind of a laptop-backpack syndicate whom goes round stealing people's laptops and backpacks. Laptops are often stolen at FC5 ALL THE DAMN TIME. ( the cleaning auntie at fc5 told us ).
We suspect students are the culprits and we believe many more students have been suffering in silence by not reporting this matters t the police so we decided t do just that.
We've left them the report and they're currently investigating. Meanwhile we can do nothing but t reach out t all sp poly students, we dont want the pain t happen t you. It can happen t anyone, just like how it happened t us.
Do not take things for granted like we did, do not think that people wont bother taking your bags because they will.
We're a living example and its a lesson learnt for us. Dont learn the hard way, and please pass this on. We do not want this t happen again and we're sure those bastards would strike again. They definitely will and we're doing all we can right now t reach out t you sp students t create awareness on this issue.
Its up t us t prevent crime from happening t any of us, those bastards wont let it go and we as the victims are here t tell you the true story, so please pass it on. Let as many people know as possible.
Thank you. :)
the only thing i cherished today was when we all snuggled today,
as a true clique,
as a bunch of people who truly cared about each other,
it touched me t know how this minor incident brought us closer,
as a clique, as it brought us t a higher level of our friendship.
Thank you mallory, yongquan for rushing back from fc6 the moment i call you peeps.
Thank you Jiamin, Chengyun and Amanda from rushing back from Orchard the moment Mallory gave you girls a call on the situation today. :)
12:22 AM
Monday, November 23, 2009
I'm only blogging because i'm waiting for my Momo love episode 6 t buffer. Oh my i've got this major crush on ding chun cheng.
You peeps wont want t know how deep, seriously. Besides you peeps would prolly burst out laughing the way i pronounce his name. Bought some really gorgeous babydoll dresses and sundresses lately. Oh my i'm so busted. Like Cheapo M, like Cheapo D.
Btw, cheapo d = chengyun. My cheapo daughter LOL ! While you prolly know cheapo M stands for cheapo mum, thats obviously me. :)
Dcc, oh my goodness. Still having the big big big hots for him. D, you better hope Mama does a good job in getting you a new papa! :D LOL my other D's amanda, but she isnt really serious at times besides i guess she doesnt mind having a stepfather.
DCC HERE I COME!
Fuck it, i sound desperate. AHA. Town on wed, i really need t start studying.
you're lucky i love you enough.
You peeps wont want t know how deep, seriously. Besides you peeps would prolly burst out laughing the way i pronounce his name. Bought some really gorgeous babydoll dresses and sundresses lately. Oh my i'm so busted. Like Cheapo M, like Cheapo D.
Btw, cheapo d = chengyun. My cheapo daughter LOL ! While you prolly know cheapo M stands for cheapo mum, thats obviously me. :)
Dcc, oh my goodness. Still having the big big big hots for him. D, you better hope Mama does a good job in getting you a new papa! :D LOL my other D's amanda, but she isnt really serious at times besides i guess she doesnt mind having a stepfather.
DCC HERE I COME!
Fuck it, i sound desperate. AHA. Town on wed, i really need t start studying.
you're lucky i love you enough.
8:14 PM
Sunday, November 15, 2009
I've been wasting my life away lately. I can feel this insistent need t just go exercise everything out. I just want t let everything out, i feel so caged lately.
I attribute this t the confidential talks i had with my mum. She sounded very unhappy with her controlled life and i wondered, is this the kind of marital life i wanted ? I doubt we would be able t go t 2nd Aunt's customary daughter's wedding. I think mum's getting emotional because 2nd Aunt just contacted her like after decades of no-contact relationship. Shes running through the memories of her past and dictating it out t me. From what i heard, 90% of it is depressing. Given my current emotional state, heck its depressing t me as well.
Yesterday morning was the worst. All she was interested in doing was talk talk talk. Me on the other hand was silent and cringing at the stories she was fishing out. Nice way t get me t shut up and be a good listener for once. I was getting a little exasperated, because i know i cant relieve her pain and this will continue indefinitely. I was getting depressed, quite depressed actually.
Until she decided t get her groceries. I decided t tag along just t lighten up the mood besides i dont relish the idea of her driving unchaperoned on the roads t three different places. People who are observant knows how bastard-ised some people can get on the roads. And the last thing i want is t be absent when people hurl abuse at my blur mother.
Threw on my cherry red and pink checkered boyfriend shirt ( which belongs t elon but i decided t steal it for myself as i decided it looked better on me ) and black shorts with my new canvas backpack. Ah lian t the max, i couldnt stand looking at myself. Adding on with skull painted slippers, damn i look like a hooker or streetside gangster.
Thank god she loosened up as we went grocery shopping as we humped from place t place. Saw uncle darren and his shu nu wife. I love how innocent his wife looks, she looks innocent even in her ultra short shorts. I mean like seriously! Not every women can pull off that look. Gawd, i'm envious. Did i mention ? She was wearing specs for the first time and omfg, she looked like a teacher. A sexy one at that woo! Okay i think i'm getting sick, like how sicko cy's pants are.
Back t topic, i was flitting from place t place listening t dave's ( david archuleta, archie sounds sooo...whatever ) whole album. Thinking of the ingredients i need t make an awesome pasta. Mum was teaching me some grocery tips, damn i feel more like an auntie now. Not that its a bad point but, i'm only 18. It doesnt make sense for me t start behaving like one doesnt it ?
Went t have a snack at sheng siong foodcourt with mum after grocery shopping. She was famished while i was totally suffering from hand aches. Imagine carrying 5kg of rice on each hand plus some frozen meat. Kill me. I dont think i need t run later on. Had my much craved egg roti prata while mum had her disgusting black glutinous rice.
She did lighten a bit after hanging out so i was quite relieved. Until this jerk of a driver we happened t see when mum was parking the car. Mum isnt a awesome driver, neither is she average. Shes just like an amateur, but it doesnt give people a reason t honk her nor halt his car like one inch away from her while shes parking the car.
This is one of the main reason why i dont think i'll ever bother getting my car license. Guys always say things like oh must be a woman driving. My dad says that all the time. So do i actually. Runs in the family man, even my aunt says that. Its not because i will prolly fail as a driver but because i'll prolly giving every jerk drivers the finger or start swearing / hurling abuses at them. Be it whether they taunt me or honk me, my temper is hard t isolate. I've tried anger management, doesnt work very well for me.
Anyway main thing is, this driver was like halting his car like 1 inch away from our car, and mum was so flustered and me as usual was fucking pissed off. I gave him a glare and reached across the steering wheel t wind down mum's window with the hope of giving him the finger and asking him t fuck off. Just as i was reaching across, i was met with a hard slap on my elbow. Awwww, thanks mum. -_- She really pissed me off as she kept procrastinating how embarrassing this confrontation would get especially since we're in the same neighbourhood.
But problem is, i dont give a fuck who he is.
He can be the President of USA for all i care, i would still give him my finger and call him a fucking cunt for halting his car so near without a decent breathing space for our car t park properly.
I hate KAYU drivers, especially those who try t block your way or halt their car so near t yours when you're parking only t zoom off the moment theres enough space for their fugly cars t drive pass. It just drives me crazy, not only me it drives my tempremental disturbingly hormonal father crazy as well. Trust me, he wont be like me. He will be much worst. Like asking you t a duel or something.
Well so much for fate, i saw my preschool cum highschool class&sch mate. Kenneth. Dont mention, we've never been on good terms. And thanks t the anger which was alr boiling, he earned a hateful glare from me. Not that i feel sorry about it, i just hate it when people see me in my most embarrassed or pissed off moments. Things can get pretty ugly when i'm flabbergasted. No one has ever seen it before, and it better stays that way.
Oh well, i'm sick of having t tell my mum t reverse this way and steer that way in order t get in the parking space that i cant take it anymore, i just get angry. Especially when she doesnt listen and insist on doing her own way only succumbing t my method when we're like desperate. And then chiding me for being a blabbermouth when my method actually works like a miracle. Awww thanks mum. -_- i can already foresee vince and me being a much better driver than mum.
Honestly, i dont feel like driving because i've seen the mortrifying driving lessons dad gave mum on the car. Utterly pride-loserly. Screaming, shouting and the occasional slaps. Oh my, i'm not ready t face that. I still prefer my own method of learning it secretly behind his back when i reach my twenties. I believe i can do as well without him. I've been trying t remember my ways around my home just so that when i get a car i can drive myself. :)
Adding on with the transitlink problem, all the more i'm fired up t get hardworking earn big bucks and get my own fucking sports car! Cant wait, i already thought of the brand i wanted, as much as uncle john's audi sports car looks mouthwatering, i think i'll go for a Ferrari.
Lets just say my relationship with people is screwed right now. People i'm close with at home. As much as i love my father's absence at home, my mum's daily rant on her miserable life is depressing me and making me go crazy. Elon's horrible attitude towards her isnt helping, vince's all-i-want-t-play attitude is driving me nuts as well. And me mulling over my lack of motivation t study is killing me as well. Sigh, i'm like facing a mid-life crisis right now.
I havent told his holiness that i'm going t catch a movie with the girls tmr after school. :( I wonder if he would get angry or something. Mum insist i should find a right time t tell him, while i cant wait t just pull out my hair just waiting for the right time.
Been bottling things up lately and i've been like carrying the world's burdens on my shoulders. Feels awful man, all i can think about is the failures i'm gonna get. I do hope i get in entrepreneurship when the results come out next week. Though i seriously doubt my own capability but if april and i get in i'll prolly team up with her as a group. :) That is, if i even manage t get in.
Life sucks when you're as problematic as me. Thank god i've dave's wonderful song; my hands with me. If not i'm gonna go ballistic.
Goodbye!
I attribute this t the confidential talks i had with my mum. She sounded very unhappy with her controlled life and i wondered, is this the kind of marital life i wanted ? I doubt we would be able t go t 2nd Aunt's customary daughter's wedding. I think mum's getting emotional because 2nd Aunt just contacted her like after decades of no-contact relationship. Shes running through the memories of her past and dictating it out t me. From what i heard, 90% of it is depressing. Given my current emotional state, heck its depressing t me as well.
Yesterday morning was the worst. All she was interested in doing was talk talk talk. Me on the other hand was silent and cringing at the stories she was fishing out. Nice way t get me t shut up and be a good listener for once. I was getting a little exasperated, because i know i cant relieve her pain and this will continue indefinitely. I was getting depressed, quite depressed actually.
Until she decided t get her groceries. I decided t tag along just t lighten up the mood besides i dont relish the idea of her driving unchaperoned on the roads t three different places. People who are observant knows how bastard-ised some people can get on the roads. And the last thing i want is t be absent when people hurl abuse at my blur mother.
Threw on my cherry red and pink checkered boyfriend shirt ( which belongs t elon but i decided t steal it for myself as i decided it looked better on me ) and black shorts with my new canvas backpack. Ah lian t the max, i couldnt stand looking at myself. Adding on with skull painted slippers, damn i look like a hooker or streetside gangster.
Thank god she loosened up as we went grocery shopping as we humped from place t place. Saw uncle darren and his shu nu wife. I love how innocent his wife looks, she looks innocent even in her ultra short shorts. I mean like seriously! Not every women can pull off that look. Gawd, i'm envious. Did i mention ? She was wearing specs for the first time and omfg, she looked like a teacher. A sexy one at that woo! Okay i think i'm getting sick, like how sicko cy's pants are.
Back t topic, i was flitting from place t place listening t dave's ( david archuleta, archie sounds sooo...whatever ) whole album. Thinking of the ingredients i need t make an awesome pasta. Mum was teaching me some grocery tips, damn i feel more like an auntie now. Not that its a bad point but, i'm only 18. It doesnt make sense for me t start behaving like one doesnt it ?
Went t have a snack at sheng siong foodcourt with mum after grocery shopping. She was famished while i was totally suffering from hand aches. Imagine carrying 5kg of rice on each hand plus some frozen meat. Kill me. I dont think i need t run later on. Had my much craved egg roti prata while mum had her disgusting black glutinous rice.
She did lighten a bit after hanging out so i was quite relieved. Until this jerk of a driver we happened t see when mum was parking the car. Mum isnt a awesome driver, neither is she average. Shes just like an amateur, but it doesnt give people a reason t honk her nor halt his car like one inch away from her while shes parking the car.
This is one of the main reason why i dont think i'll ever bother getting my car license. Guys always say things like oh must be a woman driving. My dad says that all the time. So do i actually. Runs in the family man, even my aunt says that. Its not because i will prolly fail as a driver but because i'll prolly giving every jerk drivers the finger or start swearing / hurling abuses at them. Be it whether they taunt me or honk me, my temper is hard t isolate. I've tried anger management, doesnt work very well for me.
Anyway main thing is, this driver was like halting his car like 1 inch away from our car, and mum was so flustered and me as usual was fucking pissed off. I gave him a glare and reached across the steering wheel t wind down mum's window with the hope of giving him the finger and asking him t fuck off. Just as i was reaching across, i was met with a hard slap on my elbow. Awwww, thanks mum. -_- She really pissed me off as she kept procrastinating how embarrassing this confrontation would get especially since we're in the same neighbourhood.
But problem is, i dont give a fuck who he is.
He can be the President of USA for all i care, i would still give him my finger and call him a fucking cunt for halting his car so near without a decent breathing space for our car t park properly.
I hate KAYU drivers, especially those who try t block your way or halt their car so near t yours when you're parking only t zoom off the moment theres enough space for their fugly cars t drive pass. It just drives me crazy, not only me it drives my tempremental disturbingly hormonal father crazy as well. Trust me, he wont be like me. He will be much worst. Like asking you t a duel or something.
Well so much for fate, i saw my preschool cum highschool class&sch mate. Kenneth. Dont mention, we've never been on good terms. And thanks t the anger which was alr boiling, he earned a hateful glare from me. Not that i feel sorry about it, i just hate it when people see me in my most embarrassed or pissed off moments. Things can get pretty ugly when i'm flabbergasted. No one has ever seen it before, and it better stays that way.
Oh well, i'm sick of having t tell my mum t reverse this way and steer that way in order t get in the parking space that i cant take it anymore, i just get angry. Especially when she doesnt listen and insist on doing her own way only succumbing t my method when we're like desperate. And then chiding me for being a blabbermouth when my method actually works like a miracle. Awww thanks mum. -_- i can already foresee vince and me being a much better driver than mum.
Honestly, i dont feel like driving because i've seen the mortrifying driving lessons dad gave mum on the car. Utterly pride-loserly. Screaming, shouting and the occasional slaps. Oh my, i'm not ready t face that. I still prefer my own method of learning it secretly behind his back when i reach my twenties. I believe i can do as well without him. I've been trying t remember my ways around my home just so that when i get a car i can drive myself. :)
Adding on with the transitlink problem, all the more i'm fired up t get hardworking earn big bucks and get my own fucking sports car! Cant wait, i already thought of the brand i wanted, as much as uncle john's audi sports car looks mouthwatering, i think i'll go for a Ferrari.
Lets just say my relationship with people is screwed right now. People i'm close with at home. As much as i love my father's absence at home, my mum's daily rant on her miserable life is depressing me and making me go crazy. Elon's horrible attitude towards her isnt helping, vince's all-i-want-t-play attitude is driving me nuts as well. And me mulling over my lack of motivation t study is killing me as well. Sigh, i'm like facing a mid-life crisis right now.
I havent told his holiness that i'm going t catch a movie with the girls tmr after school. :( I wonder if he would get angry or something. Mum insist i should find a right time t tell him, while i cant wait t just pull out my hair just waiting for the right time.
Been bottling things up lately and i've been like carrying the world's burdens on my shoulders. Feels awful man, all i can think about is the failures i'm gonna get. I do hope i get in entrepreneurship when the results come out next week. Though i seriously doubt my own capability but if april and i get in i'll prolly team up with her as a group. :) That is, if i even manage t get in.
Life sucks when you're as problematic as me. Thank god i've dave's wonderful song; my hands with me. If not i'm gonna go ballistic.
Goodbye!
3:37 PM
Thursday, November 12, 2009
I'm like fucking pissed off t the maximum.
It all started when my bus card decided t render its resignation. It just terminated its services without notice! I was so flustered and exasperated. You'll never imagine seeing me like this, its a total classic.
Back t the story, I went t dover control station and was gaily told t get my arse off t Jurong East Interchange. So i took my not-so-virgin mrt trip with lulu and jek. I was like thinking all the possibilities through my mind. When i arrived, kind lulu decided t tag along t keep me company plus t see how much of a bitch i can get.
Well, my card was replaced with a new one but i need t pay $10 to add value t my now currently empty new card. T my horror, they said i can only get my concession and remaining value in my card a holy 1 week later. She was ultimately disappointed because i didnt want t lose my temper at some senior citizen.
I was utterly pissed off beyond comprehension. The moment i got on the bus, i dialled the toll-free number and told the lady on the phone what was my situation etc. I know i was sounding very fierce and pissed off, i could sense her fear through her stuttering. And i felt bad, so i hung up. Besides i was on the bus, i didnt really want t make a scene.
Have sent them an email and left a flabbergasted voicemail. They better fucking reply or call me back before my 3hr break tmr. Dont make me wait if not all the girls would be enjoying a nice show tmr.
I find it absurd i've t pay an extra $20 for transportation for that one week.
Hello TRANSITLINK, ITS SINGAPORE WE'RE TALKING ABOUT, NOT USA WHERE THEY'RE SO MANY STATES SO FAR APART FROM EACH OTHER.
YOU DONT NEED 7DAYS T ANALYSE MY CARD DO YOU ?
FIRST ITS UNREASONABLE CONCESSION RATES, NOW THIS ?
I'll show them what poly students are made of, so sick of people treating poly students like second class just because we didnt opt t go JC.
On a lighter note, i hope t go t my cousin's wedding. Mama's sister called earlier t say her daughter is getting married and she hopes we could all go. Great! Hot guys, Pretty girls here i come! :D
It all started when my bus card decided t render its resignation. It just terminated its services without notice! I was so flustered and exasperated. You'll never imagine seeing me like this, its a total classic.
Back t the story, I went t dover control station and was gaily told t get my arse off t Jurong East Interchange. So i took my not-so-virgin mrt trip with lulu and jek. I was like thinking all the possibilities through my mind. When i arrived, kind lulu decided t tag along t keep me company plus t see how much of a bitch i can get.
Well, my card was replaced with a new one but i need t pay $10 to add value t my now currently empty new card. T my horror, they said i can only get my concession and remaining value in my card a holy 1 week later. She was ultimately disappointed because i didnt want t lose my temper at some senior citizen.
I was utterly pissed off beyond comprehension. The moment i got on the bus, i dialled the toll-free number and told the lady on the phone what was my situation etc. I know i was sounding very fierce and pissed off, i could sense her fear through her stuttering. And i felt bad, so i hung up. Besides i was on the bus, i didnt really want t make a scene.
Have sent them an email and left a flabbergasted voicemail. They better fucking reply or call me back before my 3hr break tmr. Dont make me wait if not all the girls would be enjoying a nice show tmr.
I find it absurd i've t pay an extra $20 for transportation for that one week.
Hello TRANSITLINK, ITS SINGAPORE WE'RE TALKING ABOUT, NOT USA WHERE THEY'RE SO MANY STATES SO FAR APART FROM EACH OTHER.
YOU DONT NEED 7DAYS T ANALYSE MY CARD DO YOU ?
FIRST ITS UNREASONABLE CONCESSION RATES, NOW THIS ?
I'll show them what poly students are made of, so sick of people treating poly students like second class just because we didnt opt t go JC.
On a lighter note, i hope t go t my cousin's wedding. Mama's sister called earlier t say her daughter is getting married and she hopes we could all go. Great! Hot guys, Pretty girls here i come! :D
9:04 PM
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Its reaching 10pm and i'm cant sleep. I dont know why, and i cant be bothered t find out why. I was terribly touched by this story i read in buzzle written by a talented writer with a high potential guy called Triple A. I know what kind of name is that right ?! But the story he wrote really touched me, its like wow. Sad enough t make me tear up, tell me how many stories can you read and end up tearing ?
Story's title is When they Cried. About poor people and how one big sister, June, was taking care of 3 lil brothers, Nathanial - Lucas - Jeremiah, whom happened t be sons fathered by her scandalous mother whom had like 3 other men in her life. Downright sick and pathetic. Oh my, i hate that Ryan ( June's stepfather, Jeremiah's biological dad ) who raped June and brings Audrey ( Mum t all the kids ) t other places for months or weeks. Leaving June with no money at all. I was horribly disgusted inside out. I felt like going t the kitchen t get a chopper and go straight up t Ryan and just cut his balls off. Including his jackass of a head.
Oh my i cant believe i'm getting pissed off over a fiction character.
I've been slacking as usual. Break today was well spentttttttt. :) JM was like helping me curl my eyelashes and chengyun helped me apply mascara. Thanks t mallory for giving me those 2 mascaras. :D
Alright nothing more t blog. Thanks t vani though for sending me david's whole album. Made me love him like x100000000000000 more! Btw, today's funniest scene ever when i told the girls about Ahem, eyecandy. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Kanchiong queens, all of them. You should have seen, widespread panic man.
JM was like saying damn loud; WHO ? WHERE?!
Mallory was like WHERE?!
Cy was like i cant see his face! Aiyah turn round i cant see his face!
Amanda was like; oh he left already ? ( shes blur until you just want t kiss her man,mad cute )
Luchella was like a bit quiet but i remembered she asked who who ?
Jek and Weiling was like sitting there eyes open. Maybe different frequency. But Mallory JM and Cy was enough t make panic spread. thanks man. I think the table beside us also know alr. Okay, at least i get a clear view of one AHAHAHAHAHA RIGHT JM ? Taste really is subjective. I know siewling would be a jackass and start saying i've horrible taste. Like duhhhhhhhhh.
I love it when Jek said; beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.
Oh my i better hope my future boyfriend is hot in my eyes. *Prays hard* Alright gonna burn some jossticks and pray hard for that t come true. Goodbye!
But its hard t hold on,
but girl try t hold on.
I'm standing here and i know i cant do this anymore.
Hold on t my hand,
dont let go.
Story's title is When they Cried. About poor people and how one big sister, June, was taking care of 3 lil brothers, Nathanial - Lucas - Jeremiah, whom happened t be sons fathered by her scandalous mother whom had like 3 other men in her life. Downright sick and pathetic. Oh my, i hate that Ryan ( June's stepfather, Jeremiah's biological dad ) who raped June and brings Audrey ( Mum t all the kids ) t other places for months or weeks. Leaving June with no money at all. I was horribly disgusted inside out. I felt like going t the kitchen t get a chopper and go straight up t Ryan and just cut his balls off. Including his jackass of a head.
Oh my i cant believe i'm getting pissed off over a fiction character.
I've been slacking as usual. Break today was well spentttttttt. :) JM was like helping me curl my eyelashes and chengyun helped me apply mascara. Thanks t mallory for giving me those 2 mascaras. :D
Alright nothing more t blog. Thanks t vani though for sending me david's whole album. Made me love him like x100000000000000 more! Btw, today's funniest scene ever when i told the girls about Ahem, eyecandy. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Kanchiong queens, all of them. You should have seen, widespread panic man.
JM was like saying damn loud; WHO ? WHERE?!
Mallory was like WHERE?!
Cy was like i cant see his face! Aiyah turn round i cant see his face!
Amanda was like; oh he left already ? ( shes blur until you just want t kiss her man,mad cute )
Luchella was like a bit quiet but i remembered she asked who who ?
Jek and Weiling was like sitting there eyes open. Maybe different frequency. But Mallory JM and Cy was enough t make panic spread. thanks man. I think the table beside us also know alr. Okay, at least i get a clear view of one AHAHAHAHAHA RIGHT JM ? Taste really is subjective. I know siewling would be a jackass and start saying i've horrible taste. Like duhhhhhhhhh.
I love it when Jek said; beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.
Oh my i better hope my future boyfriend is hot in my eyes. *Prays hard* Alright gonna burn some jossticks and pray hard for that t come true. Goodbye!
But its hard t hold on,
but girl try t hold on.
I'm standing here and i know i cant do this anymore.
Hold on t my hand,
dont let go.
9:39 PM
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Strong people dont say that it hurts,
because we gotta swallow it up.
we all have our fair share of pain,
every single person not just me.
some people just dont show it,
but everyone has them.
We be strong not because we've t be,
but because we want t be!
thanks for your passage of wisdom sis. :)
And yes terence, you're always right.
I'm glad everything is all spilled out. I feel better than before.
thank you eggies. -nicknamed by cy.
because we gotta swallow it up.
we all have our fair share of pain,
every single person not just me.
some people just dont show it,
but everyone has them.
We be strong not because we've t be,
but because we want t be!
thanks for your passage of wisdom sis. :)
And yes terence, you're always right.
I'm glad everything is all spilled out. I feel better than before.
thank you eggies. -nicknamed by cy.
8:53 PM
